i need to do this post. when i received my math mark... i was thankful. and i thanked the Lord with all my heart that he allowed me to pass with a 50. i know it isn't a great grade and that i could have done better but i really thank Him for giving me His grace. even though there were people who did better, somehow it struck me that it wasn't important how other people did, the more important thing is how i'll do in the As and if i'm really doing justice to myself.

i praise the Lord for His goodness and grace.

i hope that the other 3 subjects plus GP will be alright.

getting fatter. i'm eating like almost 24/7. i can't run fast and far anymore. i need to resume training. i hate my weighing scale. my stupid weight stares at me. i know i've lost weight compared to last year but i had to... the nutritionist said so, and if i didn't, she would scold me. i think i'm going to get another scolding from her again because my next appointment is coming soon and i didn't lose much weight these past 6 months. i don't know why i'm telling people this. but the next time anyone says i've lost weight, i haven't. it's reach a plateau.

feel so tensed. know that i've got to study sooner or later but i think i'll start a wee bit later. as in, not this week la! i haven't been practicing my piano or training my voice. i haven't been doing the stuff i'm supposed to do. my room which was cleaned just last week friday is getting cluttered up again. i'm getting annoyed with myself. especially since i told myself that i would stop thinking about illogical things but it apparently has a reverse effect because i think illogical things more often.

went back to HMV on monday. they only have 2 copies of Chelsea season review left! there were way more copies than that on friday. must save money quickly! i want a football and my armani sunglasses. i am so not ready for school even though i went back today. i actually have to think. WHY.